OK, so I have no idea if this has anything to do with what happened (I ran it by the hospital when they called me Monday to check in on me, but I have not heard back from them yet), but the night before I had the seizure, I had a total of 4 shots of Bacardi 151. There was never an instant when I felt like I had consumed too much alcohol though. Regardless, I don't think I want to take my chances, so I have decided to abstain from drinking any alcohol from this point forward. *sigh*
I should have known something was wrong when I woke up the next day. The first warning sign occurred when I was in the bathroom. I fell down and hit the door. When my friend asked what happened I brushed it off like it was nothing. The second warning sign occurred when I was locking up my apartment. I dropped my keys. The third warning sign occurred when I was getting into my car. I dropped my keys again and didn't even realize I had done so until I had got into my car and went to start the ignition and couldn't find them, because they were still lying outside on the pavement.
I eventually composed myself and headed home, but not before stopping by the grocery store first. The seizure occurred at some point afterward. Although I did hit a vehicle, the speed at which the impact occurred was not great enough to cause any damage to either of our vehicles, so I have no idea if I was stopped or moving when it occurred.
The next thing I remember was waking up in an ambulance and being informed by the EMTs of the events that occurred. I had a blood pressure of 180/120. I was so out of it that I was unable to answer simple questions like what day it was. My inability to answer those simple questions left them no choice but to take me to the emergency room.
Upon arriving there a CAT scan was done to see if I had a brain tumor, which fortunately I don't. They also took a blood and urine sample, which I am guessing did not provide them with any additional insight as to why I had a seizure, as I eventually left the emergency room with the cause unknown. I am now to follow up by contacting an epilepsy clinic, which I have tried to do, but have not had any luck getting through due to heavy call volume. I'll keep trying though, as I really would like some type of explanation as to why I had a seizure.
My life post-seizure is pretty depressing. I'm now taking Phenytoin Sodium, which should hopefully prevent this from happening again. I'm not sure if it's something I will have to take the rest of my life or not. I'd imagine I will know more once I follow up with an epilepsy clinic. I can't drive for 6 months, which makes me completely dependent upon other people if I want to go somewhere. I'm having a hard time coping with this, because I don't want to be a burden. I'll definitely be making shopping lists that create minimal trips throughout these 6 months to avoid doing this as much as possible though. Not sure what I am going to do about going to the places that are not absolutely necessary, e.g. gym, but I will eventually figure something out. The most depressing thing of all is probably going to be the hospital bill, as I do not have health insurance. I will just have to deal with that when that time comes though.
I can’t help but be angry at the world right now. I'm starting to feel like no matter what I do, nothing good will ever happen to me. Karma? I didn't think I was that bad of a person...
I have a confession... Yesterdays post was an April Fools' joke. I have to assume that NOBODY thought of that as a possibility, since I did not receive a single email from anyone who appeared to have caught onto my prank, or at least had some suspicion. Unfortunately the entire post is not entirely a lie, so I have gone back and made some additional comments in red to clarify fact from fiction.
I am deeply saddened to announce that this will be the last month that my site, ToddyLive.com, will grace your computer screens. (ToddyLive.com will grace your computer screens in the months that exist beyond this one. I'm not going anywhere yet!)
As you may know I graduated last May and relocated to a new city in September in the hopes that there would be more employment opportunities. Despite sending my resume to hundreds of prospective employers (I don't know how many prospective employers I have sent my resume to, as I have not been keeping count, but I have yet to go on a single interview regardless.) , I have not had any luck securing the full-time position that I hoped a college degree would allow me to obtain. (As I have mentioned in previous posts over the months, I am doing contract work for a firm. Unfortunately the income is not consistent, which is why I still think that having a full-time day job while continuing to do the contract work in the evening would be a more lucrative situation.) My inability to obtain a full-time position has caused the state of my finances to deteriorate significantly over the past 6 months, as I have been unable to generate enough income to pay my bills (This is not a lie unfortunately.), thus forcing me to start charging them onto my credit cards (Although I do have multiple credit cards, I only use one.), which are all maxed out now (They are not).
As a result of these hardships I will be moving back in with my mom and step-father. (I am definitely not doing this, although doing so would probably help them out as there is a possibility that my mom might be getting laid off in the near future.) Hopefully at some point I will be able to get out of this incredibly deep hole I have been digging for myself throughout the years. As they not aware of my alter ego (They know.), I have decided that I will no longer be able to continue maintaining ToddyLive.com (Again, ToddyLive.com will grace your computer screens in the months that exist beyond this one. I'm not going anywhere yet!) . I'd like to thank all of you for your support over the 6+ years I have called ToddyLive.com home! It has really meant a lot to me.
